Ask.Believe.Receive.

Is the heartache of learning to forgive worse than the heartache suffered by the unforgiven? I found myself asking this question and watched a reel of painful moments in my life pass me by. Who am I kidding, I foolishly allowed myself to relive them. Feeling the pain and sorrow push deep into my lungs from the tragic betrayals and blinding curves I never saw coming. And let’s not forget about the notorious and cancerous guilt, reminding me of my most shameful moments that I can never take back.

And that was my first mistake, allowing my pitiful mind take the front seat. My mind is the worst driver I know. Always wanting to making senseless u-turns toward everything I cannot change…or thrust recklessly forward into places that do not even exist. This is problematic because what our mind thinks, our body feels. And how our body feels, gives birth to our emotions. And our emotions act as the root of our actions. Our actions and our words (mindless or strategically planned) are what other people view us, judge us, and remember us by. This sequence is the formula to human behavior.
We seek justice when injustice has been bestowed upon us. We seek answers when we have questions, it is human nature. Where we go wrong is the moment we think we need anything more than ourselves to obtain this “justice” or to obtain these “answers.”
So which is worse? The laborious process of forgiving. Or the desperate, unyielding desire to be forgiven? I guess it is a poison we will all have to swallow at one point or another.
Forgive from a state of compassion. And ask forgiveness from a state of patience.
- MJW

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